I miss you. is that a sin?

"Yes. I miss you. More than what can I show. More than what you can understand."

some people told me already, that missing is part of loving. and, you wouldn't know how much you love it until you miss it. yes, they're right.

Missing someone, it's a pain. and it's also a joy. so I might say that Missing someone is 'Joyful Pain' something that you should really try, I guess.

Why do I write this? because I'm falling in love deeply with someone, and I miss him. I REALLY REALLY REALLY MISS HIM! yeah, of course we still can see each other often because we're going to the same school. but, so many things feel different. I've changed. He's changed. everything changed. me. him. us. atmosphere. environment. dollars. everything... between me and him. us and universe. That's why I miss him.

some people keep saying that they're miss 'The Old'. Old memories. Old things. Old couple. everything what's done already. or what's already done in the past. it happens because a lot of things changed already.

but I'm not. yes, I do miss him. but I would never miss the old. it's done already and I didn't regret it! why should I miss those old memories if I can still make the new one? all that I miss is the chance to make those new memories. because I haven't get the chance yet. until now.

I never miss the old things because I know I would never lost it. I saved it already in the perfect place. so I have nothing to worry.

hey, you. I just wanted to tell you, that... I might be busy. we might be busy. we might see each other often, but... don't you think it'll be great if we can go out together, watching some movies, eat crepes, going through the rain, then laugh together? I just wanted to know if we still love each other☺

I. LOVE. YOU.

what a...

arghhhhhh!!!

I can't find other words as opening. that's the best one, I guess. I LOST ALL OF MY STORY! I can't find the password to get in to my section. I'm pretty sure the password that I use is correct. But I still can't get in. what a... (yeah, I'll let you finish it)

I don't know whos to blame, it's just so wrong.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

oh baby say goodbye~

hey longtime no see and when we meet I'm just gon tell u bout... sad story. ohyeah I'm such a lame, and coward (ah, see?I even use coward this time!waow:D), and pathetic... ah however I am not that mean girl. well I see there's no connection among those things. well, I just can't think clearly. I just... broke up.

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I'm not the one who said, "we're done" this time it was him. yeah, no kidding. he's the one who... said it. yeah unbelievable. for me too. my bestie too. as we know tonight is saturday night, and I broke up in saturday night. Megash! what could be more pathetic?

I guess I just can't move on, well actually not yet. I haven't find anyone as good as him or atleast, can replace him. I don't even know if someone can replace him... I don't even sure, actually.

I went to my girlfrnds home tonight. she called me crying and that was totally got me panic so I'd run to her house (well actually I was riding a motorcycle err....) when I came up she's still crying. I can't cry! she's crying and me either?it wouldn't make things getting any better right?so I listen to her and some things surprised me. I'm glad I came.

when she's completely done with her story, I'd started mine. I still can't cry. then my phone rang... that was my brother.

Abang: Lu?
Me: yeah?
Abang: you... broke up?
Me: hiks... *start crying*
Abang: Lu, please, don't cry!
Me: then why you call me?!
Abang: well, it's up to me, right?
Me: sok kaya!
Abang: hahaha biarin pulsa gua ini. just... stop crying!
Me: why u call me?you just upset me ya know!?
Abang: Lah?
Me: I cried because of your voice!
Abang: Hah? well, I'll go get some dinner. I'll text you later.
Me: WHATEVER! *klik*

well we watched some videos and made plan for tomorrow so I don't have to stay home and crying... then I go home. Thanks God, I'm still fine till this second. I almost hit 2 trees 1 car and 1 tower. I am pathetic.

I guess I can move on soon.... or maybe no. I'm just gon... waiting for someone who really loves me:)

gnight!

pamsq addict

ehm. with Basmallah, this short story, begin...

pada suatu siang yg cerah (sumpah men, maksud gua panas. panas bgt soalnya gaboong) beberapa hari yg lalu tapi gua lupa kapan. Gua sm Nasu sm Gustie decided buat ke Pondok Indah. tadinya Gustie sm Mei mau jemput dirumah tapi gajadi akhirnya gua dijemput Nasu. karena bosen nunggu akhirnya gua nyusulin Nasu pake sepeda merah gua (kata anak gaul namanya fixie coy) gua nyusulin Nasu ke witana dan....

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dalam kurun waktu kurang dari satu atau setengah jam gua udah duduk petakilan di motor sm Nasu mau nyamperin Gustie yg ngabacotnya sih mau nyamper kerumah tapi gak dateng-dateng dan ujugujugnya gua yang nyamperin dia untungnya ke viladago bukannya ke pml2.

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gak berapa lama kita sampe depan viladago dan jrengjreng!!! buset jalanan udah kayak kuburan kalo yg meninggal LadyGaga apa Katty Perry grgr keserempet jet men, rame bgtbgt! cuma bedanya ini rusuh dan penuh suara klakson kesana-kemari. gua yg emg dasar bocah idiot teriak dan tepuk tangan dibelakang Nasu. "Aaanjiiirrr rame banget aaaa! kita gmn kesananya? ada kecelakaan ya, ya, ya???" sumpah jawabannya gua tau banget; dibilang bego/goblok sama Nasu-_-

akhirnya gua muter balik lewat jalan tikus biar nggak kena macet.

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gua udah kembali ke jalan raya yg ternyata TETEUP MACET. dan gua yg EMANG TOLOL msh berprasangka kalo itutuh kecelakaan dan Bayu yang notabene bego cuma sok PINTER tereak: "Oh iya! gua inget! ada SM*SH!"

gua ngejerit. seolah-olah buat gua ada kecelakaan sm ada SM*SH di pamsq itu sm aja. and u know what, men? it's true... gua gaktahan buat ngelirikin satusatu orgorg yg lewat dan mau nggak mau konsekuensinya adalah... diliatin balik. jadi gua nunduk sepanjang jalan macet arah pamsq...

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OH IYA! BAYU BEGO BGT! masa GULP GUA DICAMPUR SAMA ROOTBEER! ARGGHHHHH!!!

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gua pulang sampe Pamulang trnyt msh macet. dan gua mau dicolek orang. dan gua nggak tau kenapa gua nulis ini. jadi... bye! :p